I have found, myself full of tears today. I feel like Jeremy and I were on vacation, these last 2 days and the child that we were hearing so much about wasn't our own. I felt so strong when they were explaining to me all the details, I never even cried. It feels so real now that I'm home. It makes me sad. I know God is in control and he loves us, but it doesn't make it any easier to go through it.